God's Will

Have you ever wonder what God's plans for you? What exactly was the thing that we are suppose to do? Should I do this? Is this right? Questioning was exactly what I'm going through now, with all these why, what, how, where, who...

It was just this recent Friday night right after Alpha Course, answers were coming towards me. (certainly with some doubts too) Firstly was about prayer I made previously. Am I having the right prayer? Should I change another aspect on what I'm praying? Secondly was the time. Would it be the time is still not right? Thirdly was the lack of confidence in myself. Why am I always worrying that it is hard to persue my dreams? I love art, music and so many things. Why am I worrying so much still, when God's is providing all for us already?

Doubts. Doubts...and many more doubts.

I started to think right back in my childhood days, where my mom brought me to the nearby community center for Art classes. This struck me so deeply, though I wasn't really sure whether I'm at the right of track, that God has a plan for me. The plan was way before I'm here now. Would it be right that God has planned to let my Mom to send me to Art classes, that leads me to at this point?

I find it quite amusing about how I started loving Art. It's not an interest right at the start of my life. I could say it's a gradual thing. I went classes at the age when I'm like in Preschool, in fact I don't really like or enjoy it either. Seriously, I was quite bad at it.

It was during my Primary 5, at the age of eleven, I took part in a 'Bookworm competition'. (It was a compulsory by my Art teacher) At that time, I wasn't sure what should I draw or how should I do about it. Honestly, I don't really read bookworm books. How could I even draw without a book to look at?

Later part of the week, I borrowed some books and took a close look at the picture cover. Then I decided on a book. The weirdest miracle happen from there. I started drawing and coloring with MIXED Medium and shading (which I swear that I've really never learn before). Of course I got one of the top 3 in school and have my art piece pin up in the Library.

This is like a new lid fire burning inside me, all till my Secondary School. I believe that God has given this gift to me, and I'm sure that the fire is still burning hot and will never, NEVER dies.