A Change in Life

Life is never the same for me, ever since I get to know God. Who is this great person? What difference does he makes in me? Well, it's kinda strange to hear from a person like me have committed myself to God.

Smoking, clubbing, drinking and many other things had been my life in the past. I could play all night and return home late or simply stay at my friend's place for a night. I could club all night long and work the next day without having any rest. That's me.

When I started to realize that life like this was meaningless, as there is no joy, no comfort, no security and no LIFE. Everything was only exciting for just that couple of hours, and you are back to reality again. I could party all time with people that were just acquaintance, no one will ever be true at that kind of place.

I started to realize that we only tend to seek help for God only during that last moment of life-and-death threatening moments, where we are utterly helpless for sure. God is really good. He never forsake you even you had forsaken him all the time. When you are lost, he lighten your path. But you just simply can't give as much as he can gives you.

I'm from a Buddhist family, there are many things that I can't understand. One thing that I'm very sure of, is that no other God in this world is better than my God. He was the most kindest, graceful, merciful, forgiving, loving, caring...(on and on) God that I ever know. Who in this world can forgive your sins and provide you with a second chance? or third? or Forth? or even more? God send his only son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross in order to redeem us. How great is he.

Being a young Christian I'm definitely not worthy yet to have so much grace from him. There are so many things that I couldn't simply give up, but I'm sure that I'm willing to give my life to him.

Many times, I felt a disgrace for considering myself as a Christian. For I still couldn't be as worthy as he wants of me. Though I'm not a worthy servant, but he still blessed me with so many things. I have a good Dad, Mum, siblings and friends. He gave me happiness when I sing, draw, paint, hear and taste. I was in choir during my Secondary school days, and I found the happiness that I've lost these years after that in Church choir. Singing is a gift. Drawing & painting are also a gift. My senses are also a gift from him. He have given me all the joy that I want. Thank you so much God!

I used to sleep during any kind of sermon. It was to my amazement that I found meaning and interest in recent sermons. How could this happen? It's impossible to keep me awake, but in fact, it is really enlightening.

I guess God have a plan for me, and so does he have for you. We shall see what he has for us...